Tamu - look how far you have come and be very proud. Soon, too, your next step - the catheter - will be a thing of the past. And we all feel lucky for "modern" science that lets us know exactly where we stand (at least most of the time!).
Emotional ups and downs are common - we spend weeks and months researching, discussing, and dealing with a very serious disease. Then, there is the aftermath - and the recovery! The downer side will pass, too, as the challenges of your next steps begin. Then, before you know it, they'll be a thing of the past, too.
There may always be certain levels of uncertainty, but this still beats those first days of shock and discovery!
Husband age 65
PSA on 5/1/06: 4.2 (had doubled in 13 mos. and rising monthly)
DaVinci Surgery 8/2/06
T2a (at biopsy)
T4c (at pathology) w/cancer cell leakage into fatty tissue
Post-Surgical PSA on 10/3/06 - undetectable!
Update: 11/1/06 - perhaps bladder neck involvement; 30%-50% chance of recurrence
Future: PSA tests twice-yearly for now