Hey Tim, I am a young guy! I just want to thank all of you on this forum, because i have been trolling here for the past few months. And you guys and gals have really gave me hope, not knowing from doctor visit to doctor visit what to expect next. Again, we serve a Big God, a God of Hope. It would be selfish for me not to tell my story. As you all know, you cannot go the journey by yourself.
I have one terrific wife, one of forty years. She walked with me every step of the way, my five children who are from 30yrs to 40yrs travlled the road also. We are a tight family, now we are a lot tighter!And now I have all of you in my family, Thank You.
Do not ever forget we serve a God of Miracles!!!! Back in April before my diagnoses of all this mess, I had just purshased my first brand new car, that was in March. the other car we had let my wife sit five times in one month, it was a ford tarus, not a bad car, it was purchased in 1994, it was a 1991 model. So all my children got together and myself and financed this car. Low and behold i start having problems with my right testical. This was on Good Friday, so I knew that i knew that i had to see a doctor and see one fast. I got an appointment that day, and the Doc said I must see a specilist, just to be sure everything is ok. Well the doc got me a specilist for the following week which i thought was a miracle. So i go into the office and the uro-doc checks me out and says, yep that has to go! So I said, Lets do it asap! The uro-doc say no, we are going to put you on antibiotics for a month,just to make sure it is not an infection. I said, No way uro-doc, we either get this out next week or i go to a different uro-doc. You just told me it has to go, now you tell to wait a month or more. cancer is a killer and it is coming out ASAP!!! That same day the uro-doc sent me to the hospital to get all these test done, ultrasound, cat scan, chestxry, and who knows what all else. this was a tuesday after Easter, Thursday the same week we meet with the uro-doc to get the diagnosis. Now for what reason i have no idea, but his nurse sits my wife down and hands her a clip board, and i sit next to the docs desk. the doc sits down looks at the test results of the tuesday before, and starts reading. Ed you have testicular cancer, you have prostate cancer, you have a mass on your pelvis, you have blood in your urine, you have possible lymphoma. Well with all of that my wife just about fell off the chair, forget the clip board! The uro-doc said we will remover the testicle the following tuesday. So my wife and i left the office, heart broken, in tears, not beliving what we just heard, the death sentence of cancer. How many bullets can we dodge. We had to driver about twenty miles back to our home in Lebanon, and on the back we cried and prayed, I told my wife that we serve a Big God, a God who is over cancer, and there isn't one problem He cannont handle. Jesus Christ is Big C, cancer is little c. and we do not bow to cancer.
I just want to tell you about our first miracle in this little blog. My oldest daughter who is a nurse already had the results of the hospital tests and told us things do not look good.
I notified my employer and told him i would be off for i do not know how many months, but i would be back. I received no pay the whole time i was off. That was a real problem in my mind. You see, we always think we have to be control of everything. This is the nature of the beast. Not this time, ed was in control of nothing. After the operation, the uro doc told me i have to see an oncologist, and he would be in Lebanon's Good Samaritan Hospital, this guy is awesome, what a saint. The following tuesday we had our appointment with him. He came in the room, checked me out, reviewed the exrays and biopsie report from the testicle that had just been removed. and said, ed you have testicle cancer, you will die in six months if not treated. we have chemotherpy that will cure this disase, it is your choice. I said to the Onco-doc, lets get it done, lets start asap. He said i would have to wait until my insicion from my operation was healed, so we started chemo in May of 2006.
My first day on the cancer ward was very scary, only other people get cancer, what am i doing here??
In this hospital one nurse is assigned to you for your whole chemo treatment, which for me would be 13weeks, 5hours a day 5days a week, 1hour a week on the off week, then back to 5hours a day for five days. so i walk into the room and i am met with an angel (my nurse) she says to me,"ed we are going to hit you hard and furious", I said lets get it done. and for the next 13weeks i went through a living hell, to say it mildly. I had to travel everyday to get these treatments. I was about three weeks into it and i am lying in bed, just miserable, and wanting to die. thinking about my bills, the new car i just bought, which now i am saying i shoud not have bought. It was 9:30 on a friday night i get this phone call. It went just like this, "Hello my name is Mickey, I understand you have cancer, i know you are without a paycheck, and have a few bills to pay". I have know clue who this Mickey guy was!!! I do not know anyone by the name of Mickey! Mickey proceeds to tell me that he will cut me a check for $1000.00 now, and give me $350.00 in Giant food gift cards. I jumped up and said What!!!!!!!!
I do not even know you Mickey, I could not even pay you back, Mickey's reply was this,"Ed i know what you are going through, you never missed a day of work in your life. You are not suppose to pay me back" then i said I do not even know you, Mickey again replys back," you are not suppose to know me, this is about Faith, Hope, and Love"! "And I will send you a check for thousand dollars a month for as long as you are off from work". Mickey had sent me a check every month for 5months until i could go back to work. Listen everybody, we serve a Mighty, All Knowing, All Powerful God. He is The Good Sheperd, He is A Good Heavenly Father. I belive we are put in these situations to get closer to Him, He loves us and wants to take care of us. to be continued