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lifeline
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Joined : Aug 2007
Posts : 67
Posted 8/28/2007 6:36 PM (GMT -6)
hi everyone: if this is another repeat i apologize. i'm still trying to find my way around here and i keep posting other places. i think i finally figured out my mistake. anyway if this post is doubled sorry. the last two days have seen a great difference in my husbands condition. his energy is mostly back, his pain in upper back is only occasional and he is fully on all meds.  huge difference.  finding you folks has been a huge blessing for me. thank you for your strength, understanding, hope, compassion, caring, sharing, and not judging. just been through some of the judging with a couple of family members. except for having to go to work which i sure wish we could financially afford for me not to, i haven't left my husbands side. an overnight camping trip with my oldest daughter, daughter-in law, and grandchildren had been planned for one night. two family members asked me how i could think of going when my husband was sick. i felt so guilty for even thinking about this overnight trip that i cancelled. at that point, i lost it and went where i could be alone, (we live in the country) yelled, cried, threw things and punched trees. i was so suddenly angry at the cancer, angry at not being to go on this one thing i had looked so forward to, and then the immense guilt i felt for wanting to do this was overwhelming. my husband wanted me to go and take one night for myself. i thought, he is sick and i'm being selfish for being angry. has anyone else gone through this. this is the first time this has happened to me. also, i feel like i'm so wrapped up in being his caregiver, that i've lost the ability to be his wife. this just hit me yesterday. how do i put this cancer aside for awhile and just be a wife. i'm so consumed with doing everything i can to help him stay alive and beat this that i've gotten lost in it. if anyone has any suggestions they are appreciated. anyway, keep up the fight, stay strong in your battle, each and everyone of you are in my prayers each night and if i can contribute anything that will help someone, i will. you folks are my lifeline. sorry if i sounded full of self pity. not usually like this. god bless all of you.  lifeline 
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uncledan
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Posted 8/28/2007 7:56 PM (GMT -6)
You can't be much help to your husband if you let yourself become run down physically. It is good to be there when he needs you, but you must take time to reenergize. Since he on the meds and I don't know the rest of the story, If he is in the hospital he is in good hands. Personally I had to run my wife off so she could get some rest and energy. It did us both good for when she can back she was not dead tired. Uncle Dan
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puget
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Posts : 237
Posted 8/28/2007 7:58 PM (GMT -6)
Everyone on this forum understands your frustration, worry, fear, guilt and anger. We've all been there -- at least I know I have. I believe it's OK to need and take time for yourself -- That way you're in better shape to be there for your husband when he needs you most. Stay with us. We'll stay with you.

puget
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bluebird
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Posts : 2543
Posted 8/28/2007 8:10 PM (GMT -6)
Lifeline ~   Don't apologize... you're doing just fine.... with your postings....  The main thing is Stay Close and Keep Posting....   As Jetguy stated once to a member in need….   Please give us a name (even if it’s not real)…We need to have that special touch!   Stop ~ take a deep breath …   now Stop ~ and take another one.   You must take care of you…. no matter what!!!!   If that trip is still scheduled ~ GO!!!!   What you’ve written (one, some, or all) has been experienced by one or more of us… So ~ keep talking and keep sharing.   We have extra strength that will help you through this.   You have a lot going on so just keep posting the way that is easiest for you! I will make sure that your thread stays together……     Keeping you close in thoughts and prayers…. Stay Close.. In Friendship ~ Lee & Buddy   bluebird     Helping to keep Lifelines Journey together: advanced prostrate cancer with mets
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myman
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Posts : 1219
Posted 8/28/2007 8:39 PM (GMT -6)
Right now I wish you & I were having a cup of coffee together, in my kitchen, so you could say whatever you need to and NOT feel any guilt because of it.
I think by coming here and saying so plainly and honestly how you feel is a big move on your part. I appreciate so much that you did. I swear to G-d that helps all of us so much.

Lifeline - I say this with kindness - you should've gone on your planned trip...it sounded like a wonderful thing to do for you and for your girls. That IS how you save yourself...those moments that you share with your precious kids is an opportunity for you to draw strength from them. You need that time. THAT'S how you put the cancer aside and you get some relief from this. You wind up better for it and so does your husband, lifeline. You cannot be everything to someone else. It sounds like your husband is doing better and wanted you to go...the other family members were out of line. Would I be safe in saying your husband would not appreciate they said that to you? But I'm not telling you anything you don't already know.

Your anger was justified and a big step towards to seeing cancer for what it really is. cancer is a liar...the guilt is a lie. cancer is a thief...it doesn't want to just take away health, it wants to take away peace and confidence and replace that with fear. cancer is selfish...it wants all the attention. It wants to control everything and everyone around it. And it will if you let it. Please don't let it, for both your sakes.

I speak from experience, it's hard work but it's something you will get through. This is tough but you will be tougher. I don't believe your feeling "full of self pity"...I believe you're trying to come to grips with all of this.

Please continue to post. We need you. That's what you can do for us.

Susan





cancer does not deserve to be capitalized.
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spinbiscuit
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Posted 8/28/2007 9:00 PM (GMT -6)
Hello lifeline,

You owe no apologies to anyone. You have to take care of yourself as well. If you become ill physically or mentally how will you be able to help your husband? Go camping and rejuvenate the spirit; it will make you strong.

Glen
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Cedar Chopper
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Joined : Mar 2007
Posts : 432
Posted 8/29/2007 4:14 AM (GMT -6)
Lifeline,

Regardless of how these storms blow into your life, spend some time with your grand-children.

Both you and they need that spark of the spirit such a relationship brings.
Feed your smile and keep it strong. 
Your husband needs it as much as he needs you and you need each other!

Your friends here understand the frustrations that come with this battle.
We will be here for your trials and to celebrate even the smallest victory.

In the Son,

CCedar
ICTHUS!

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bluebird
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Posts : 2543
Posted 8/29/2007 5:19 PM (GMT -6)
Susan *Myman ~

What a powerful posting.... to Lifeline...
It truly touched our hearts!! 

Thank you for you... Cedar, Spin, Puget, UncleDan and every member on *Our Prostate Forum

Lifeline ~

You continue to be touched by angels....... 

Stay Close

In Friendship ~ Lee & Buddy

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