In my desire to be brief, I gave you all the wrong impression about my doctor's visit. Here's how it all went down:
The doc came in and when I told him I wanted to try the injections, he left, came back in with the pamplet which explains the process and with a syringe and bottle of saline. He asked if I had ever given injections and I answered "no". I indicated I was ready for him to give it (I was sitting on his table and had already unfastened and unzipped my pants and I was sitting there with my tucked shirt showing, thinking he would say, "Pull up your shirt and pull down your drawers." From the post here on Healing Well, I thought he would give the injection and leave the room. I had planned on watching the erection I hadn't seen in eight months. I expected him to come in in about 15 minutes, perhaps feel the firmness, and send me out through the waiting room, the elavator, and the parking garage trying to hide the obvious buldge in my pants. I was really really dreading that whole process, so I was relieved that it didn't happen, except I was disappointed that I left without an erection.
Instead, he said, "We used to do that but we are no longer allowed to keep the medication on hand. I will write a prescription and you can pick it up. I will show you how to give yourself the injections." "But I thought you would do the first one." I expected him to have the medication on hand. Then he proceeded to show show the botttle of saline and gave instruction how to draw the medication to the proper dosage. Then he said, "Ok, lower your pants and I'll show you how." He proceeded to show me how to stretch out the penis, avoid the veins, inject the needle and the medication. He was precise and gave the warnings. He did everything except inject the saline solution. His instructions and demonstration was sifficient for me to have the knowledge. I didn't tell him I already had read all about it on Healingwell.com. Everything he told me I had already read here. I just had never given an injection before, especially on myself... especially in my...
So I am sorry my brevity allowed you to draw wrong conclusions. I think he indicated he would guide me if I wanted to inject the saline, but I didn't want to do that.
So, re-read my questions. What do you think? Of course my main concern is will I ever be able to enjoy love-making with my wife again? Will I ever have those very pleasant sensations which lead to orgasm? I know you probably can't answer that question, but I am thinking that some of you may have had the same lack of sensation but now enjoying things again, even if you have to inject Trimix, etc. to get it.
Sorry for the long post and sorry I misled you. Now when I read this thing, I'll turn red knowing I have posted so all the world can read. Then I'll remember that I am writing to friends who care. I''m getting desparate with my worst-case scenario going full steam: Still incontinent and impotent after eight months post open surgery.
First biopsy 07/05;
Diagnosed: "Suspicious looking cells". Dr. says wait and watch.
Second biopsy: 12/27/06
Diagnosed cancer: 01/24/07
Gleason Grade: 3+3=6
Radical Open Nerve-sparing Prostatetomy: 02-14-07
Cancer confined to prostate
Pathology Stage of cancer: T2c
First Post-Op PSA on 04-18-07: 0.011
Bleeding problem at 6 weeks post surgery...No resolution despite several trips to surgeon, antibiotic treatment.
05/31/07: Cystoscope reveals "stone", due to "Stricture" (narrowing of uretha at prostate removal site).
06/12/07: Procedure to remove stone & dilate uretha at stricture: Successful procedure, but is most likely a temporary fix, and incontinence continues.
8/16/07: Start bleeding again in urine. Get to see a new urologist same day. He thinks stricture is back, but send home with Cipro.
8/20/07: Go back to dr. for cystoscope. "No sign of stricture"! Wonderful news! Still leaking.
8/31/07: Back to new urologist for regular check up & received 2nd post-op Psa. It was 0.05 (non-deteactable). PTL! But still leaking
8/31/07: First Bio Feedback session. The little lady is very positive that I can gain control. That's what I want more than her. New urologist is not very sold on effectiveness of Kegals???
9/19/07: Finished 4 Bio Feedback sessions. No imporovement with leaking. Recommended possible callegen implant. She noticed from 8/20 cysto that my sphincter was ... too short?... huh?