I think we are a lot a like. I will tell you what I learned from my experience. Be happy with the success of today. Rod made it through surgery! That is fabulous! Rod got his catheter out! Great news! My dad was sooooo happy on that day! As hard as it is for me to give him a break, they need a break to heal mentally and physically. Waiting is the hardest part, however, unfortunately from experience, there is nothing we can do for awhile after the pathology report comes back. Regardless of the result. Unfortunately, part of this horrible disease is that we will never be truly comfortable. My dad's path report wasn't the report I was hoping for and it devastated me, however, we still have to wait six weeks until his post-op PSA to start any treatment...maybe even another two weeks after that. It has been a hard 4 weeks of waiting, but this is an important time for my dad physically and mentally. (and for us)
The path report will come that is for sure and you will have time to soak it in and hopefully celebrate a great report! If not, you will still have time to make your next plan of attack. Either way...it's a waiting game. A good friend of mine who is an Oncologist told me that I need to wrap my mind around the idea that there are no answers with cancer. No if A then B. You will see this from a lot of the posts. It doesn't make sense to me why my dad's PSA of 5.5, Gleason 7 spread outside the prostate and into a lymph node, when people with PSA's of 100 didn't. It doesn't do me any good to ask why. We've got to "play it where it lays". We make the best decisions we can with the information we have and don't look back. I keep reminding myself of this.
I am type A and I want everything done now and I am a fixer. It's hard when I can't fix things. I'm learning to be patient and to celebrate the litte things right now. My dad's continence is getting a little better and his infection is feeling better after being on antibiotics for a few days. I have to celebrate the little wins, otherwise, I will drive myself crazy.
So, today I am going to celebrate with you that Rod is through surgery, through with the catheter and pray that his path report comes back with good news and he has a speedy recovery. I will also continue to pray! Cheers to your husband and all that he has been through successfully! You guys can and will do this! Hang in there!