Posted 10/24/2009 9:50 AM (GMT -8)
I don't usually take any comfort in knowing that other people have similar probs as me. But I am so glad that you shared your story. I have been feeling totally out of control. It is so horrible. When I first started having problems a few years ago, I had a thyroid test run & it came back 28, but the doc said that I could only be treated if my TSH was 30 or higher. So I was given anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, anti-psychotic meds (maybe a few others, I don't really remember much of anything about that time). It made me 1000x worse. I got Serotonin Syndrome since I was being treated for extraordinarily severe, treatment resistant depression, even though I actually was hypo, anemic, pernicious anemic & my estrogen was through the roof. Once I got on the Synthroid, B12, iron & BCP, I started feeling better & was hopeful that things would finally be stable for me. But now that seems not to be the case some of the time. Sometimes it works wonders & I feel so very much better, but other times I just feel out of control. I try to think my way out of it, but that really hasn't been working.
I'm going to keep trying to figure out how to better manage all these feelings so they don't go spilling out into my world, but at least I feel like there is someone else in the world who knows exactly what it feels like to be torn in 2 different directions from moment to moment. I have been tracking the list of symptoms & am trying to figure out if there are any "warning signals" -- like how I used to get an aura before I would get a migraine. Maybe there will be something I can do if I can figure that out b/c really I'm like you & don't realize that I've swung the other direction until I find myself being short or upset or whatever with other people or activities.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences with me. :)