I am really sick this weekend, and just feel like I'm worthless. I have Hashimoto's and Lyme disease, and I don't know which is the culprit. Yesterday I had terrible stomach pain (high, starting under rib cage), and felt all day that I needed to go to the bathroom. It hurt worse to sit, so I spent most of the day laying flat or standing up. Today I woke up with terrible diarrhea. This is a pattern that happens about
every 5-8 weeks. It took me forever to figure that out. I thought I kept getting a "touch of the flu" with either vomitting or diarrhea. All I can do is cry, go to the bathroom, cry some more....... I just want to shut down, stay in bed and do nothing. But I have 3 young children, a full time job, and several other committments that I have to keep up with. My home looks like those featured on "Hoarders" (not quite as drastic). Not because I collect things, but because I have no energy to clean up...things just keep piling up. My family deserves more, but I have nothing more to give them. I don't want my kids (age 8,5,3) growing up in an environment that is so messy, a mom who never feels like doing anything, etc, etc. I just don't know what to do anymore.
If you read this, Thank you for listening. I'm sorry for being so down and depressing.