New and freaked out

During my annual ob/gyn appointment a couple of weeks ago my new doc felt my thyroid was enlarged on one side and referred me to an ENT, my appointment is in a couple of weeks.  Of course I came right home, got on the internet and I've now succeeded in freaking myself out with worst-case scenarios. 

I have PCOS and struggled with infertility, always been hairy (real fun) and resistant to losing weight despite a healthy diet and lifestyle. I CrossFit and run a couple of miles 5-6 days a week yet I sit at 170 lbs, I cannot lose weight.  I just thought that's how my body is and now that I'm 40 it was a fact of life, I never considered that maybe a thyroid issue could be factor. 

I know no one can tell me everything will be fine but I guess I just needed to vent.  My husband always says 'oh everything will be fine' and he's sick of hearing me worry.   

Thanks hypoHashimoto for the response - I guess I don't have a question, just freaking out and not sure what to expect.

Does enlargement on one side always indicate a nodule? And does a nodule mean I have cancer? I get naseous even typing it out.

Yea. No need to worry. It's not that bad. Even if you do have thyroid problems, there are a lot other worse things to have to put up with.

Hi Worrywart, as funny as this sounds, quit being a worry wart. And welcome to HealingWell. I have PCOS too, so I know how that goes. Did you know enlarged thyroid can come hand in hand meaning nothing with the pcos?

I found my thyroid problem by my PCOS going haywire. You know how it can go, well with me it went capoots and decided to bleed for two months then nothing for 5 months then bleed for 3 months. I finally got tired of it and went to the doctor. So they did blood work and before I even got out of the doctor office they were calling me saying when my ultrasound was on my thyroid. Within 3 days they had me at OHSU (a teaching hospital) with an Endo. Thats when you can worry when your life is chosen for you. But if they just say come back in a couple weeks, it is usually fine. Now I live with Grave's disease, a thyroid problem.

Seriously, enlarged thyroid usuallly means nothing. Some people just have them enlarged. Sometimes it can mean something. The doctors are just trying to figure out if it means something or nothing hon. We all had to do this at first.

Now that is funny, I just got in remission last month from a tumor behind my left eye. I was in chemotherapy for 4 years. So why do you think you have a brain tumor hon?

When I first got sick, my eye swelled up and wouldn't open. A few days later I was vomiting first thing every morning. My inner body was litterly telling my something is wrong. Its like a sixth sense and hearing your inner conscience "something's wrong." The pain was so intense, it triggered a migraine. I went in and out of doctor office for two weeks. When the migraine hit, I went in once again. I was telling the doctor what to give me after I told her to kill me. I really didn't want to die, I was just in that much unbearable pain. She decided to have me do a MRI and the MRI caught the tumor. When I had an emergency biopsy to confirm the tumor it came back with results. My eye opened some then, I have no depth vision,, double and triple vision depending on the angle of how I look.

So why are you so worried hon? Would you like to talk to me about it?

Did you have a bad experience with doctors or something?

Thanks for the tip on the anxiety board, I will stop over there, sounds like a good fit for me :)

Over the last year I've lost about 40 lbs from diet and exercise, I've never felt better, I needed to do it. Now I do CrossFit almost every day (3 days on, 1 day off) and have no logical reason to be fearful. I almost feel pissed about this thyroid thing just because I am in such a good place, it's like WHY NOW?! I just want to enjoy my stronger, smaller, healthier body!

I have never had a bad medical experience, I think I just come from a long line of worriers, my mom and grandma were the same way.