We all go through it...it's a process...trying to skip from step one to totally accepting is near impossible, for steps 2 and 3 eventually hit.
The best thing you can do for yourself is to learn about
UC, learn what meds you need to use and how to use them properly.
None of us think or believe at first we have to be on meds forever...my doc never stated I had to, and we did try to get me off them..
I was the one who stated I realised I'd be a med-lifer.
My doc's philosophy is to be on the least amount of meds for the longest period of time. It's paid off from my perspective.
Knowledge is power and experience is the best teacher (sad but true).
Remember as well, you don't have to be on meds you don't want to be on if you deem them inappropriate. I have refused pred from another doctor who stood in for my doc for one of my appointments....my doc never offered them to me.
Try not to compare yourself to others' suffering/illness...you'll never get to a point where you fit in. We all deal/accept/live with in different ways.
Hang tough...it'll make sense eventually.
*Heather*Status: mini flare Dec 28... increased enemas to nightly
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~5ASA: Asacol (6 daily) + Salofalk enemas (increase for flares tapered to maintenance)
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed
~Probiotic 3(Natural Factors Protec) bedtime + 1 (Primadophilus Reuteri) occasionally
~multi-digestive enzymes as needed ....bromelain 1 - 2x daily
~Ranitidine,Pariet (reflux) Effexor XR 75mg; Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!