Actually, UC does deserve respect....for if you don't understand it and learn how to deal/medicate/heal, the feeling of desperation and failure and longing for how you were before will only reward you with misery. Not a good pay-off. Count feeling well as a good thing.
UCinNC...you have a huge life altering event coming up in the Fall. The planning and preparation and stress as well as having UC will undoubtedly coincide/collide.
Try to accept that it is what it is, and figure out what can work for you to maintain the status quo while going through this year.
You might just very well surprise yourself.
I used to fear the next flare until I got the hang of using my meds....as well, having a doctor who was supportive helped a lot!
Living with UC is what you make of it ...it's a learning process, but it isn't static...and as life happens at the same time, you will probably have to be one step ahead to recognise all what's happening with your body. Knowledge is definitely power. Experience, although unfortunate, is the teacher.
There is nothing ever written that you'll have to have your colon removed. It's an option when all else fails....but try not recycle the fears of something that may never happen. Don't punish yourself for doing what it takes to feel well. You will flare again, but you also know more now than even a month ago. You've come a long way!
*Heather*Status: mini flare Dec 28... tapered to every 3rd night
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~5ASA: Asacol (6 daily) + Salofalk enemas (increase for flares tapered to maintenance)
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed
~Probiotic 3(Natural Factors Protec) bedtime + 1 (Primadophilus Reuteri) occasionally
~multi-digestive enzymes as needed ....bromelain 1 - 2x daily
~Ranitidine,Pariet (reflux) Effexor XR 75mg; Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!