This post is a general post about losing it, but also a motivation to get a move on it...
Didnt it feel great to lose that weight? Now that its back, dont you want to lose it? Losing weight bec. of this is sometimes nice. Sometimes, for some people it is even enjoyable (the weight loss not the UC). But now that its back, will it be any harder to lose? Also, has anyone been succesful at losing it or keeping it off through efforts of their own like diet and excersize?
I lost 25 lbs. 3 months before dx.
Now its been 15 months since dx, GLADLY gained the all the weight back. I say GLADLY because I'm healthy!! So what if there's a self-sabotaging war being waged in my colon, right now, its in remission and i'm healthy and feeling good. While i am not happy about gaining back those fabulous 25 pounds i lost and felt great without them, having gained it back is an AMAZING sign. Things are working 'down there' and i'm thankful!
I seems attainable and acheivable mainly because i SAW and EXPERIENCED being 25 lbs. less than i am now. So thats my #1 motivation. I was there. I was able to fit into 4 sizes smaller than i am. I felt great. I could move around more freely and felt so darn GOOD shlepping less poundage!
Now, taking that first step toward 'weight loss' is and will be much harder than losing it because they literally slid off on their own and i gained it back by eating everything and anything i wanted. and then some.
Motivation #2 is that I work as a Head Lifeguard in a camp for sick children. Being "weighty" in swimming attire is no fun:) Last year i was thinner but lethargic because i was still healing. This year, i plan on being thinner than now, active and succeeding at this losing weight thing.
I plan on doing that through 'diet and excersize.' Nothing extreme or celebrity-ish. I plan on keeping a Food Journal, which i began a few weeks ago. I've been writing what and when i eat and when the bathroom trips took place on what the bm looked like. I've been trying to put it on paper to figure out what foods agree with me and what are more 'volatile' as well as examine how my body digests them;)
So keeping up the food journal, using my gym memership and getting off my rear-end more often is the plan. Obviously with conscious timing and planning of excersize.
Gulp, in reality, how does one really begin being active after such a long hiatus? Work with a personal trainer? Read a book on fitness? Just start anywhere? Just start using the treadmill? I think i'm scared. i dont know why or of what. dont know where to begin or what will be most effective. maybe i'm afraid of failing or even of success. At any rate, I need support in this endeavor....
Dx: Dec. 2006 with UC
Now Asacol 4tabs 2x a day.