It is really difficult, I totally understand where you're coming from. Right now I'm in a flare and should most definitely be on medication, but I just started a new job and have to wait till July for the insurance to become effective and I simply can't afford the medication out of pocket. There are programs that offer reduced cost or free medications if you qualify, like www.rxassist.com
The problem with that is you need a doctor's signature and a prescription from one, which is hard to get if you can't get in to see a doctor!! But you could probably try a free clinic or something and see if they would fill one out for you. Oddly enough, I qualify to receive my azathioprine free, but not the asacol, which always seemed MUCH more expensive! Grr.
Good luck. There are always options, you just have to dig deep.
And don't be afraid to share you stories or just come here to vent, that's what we're here for and I guarantee no one minds :)
Female, 22, Ulcerative colitis (pancolitis) since 1999; GERD; gastritis; osteopenia in hip & lumbar region of the spine from long term prednisone use.
10mg Lexapro (for depression/social anxiety)
Digestive Advantage: Crohn's and Colitis formula (2 pills per day, started 5/14/08)
4800mg Asacol (Four 400mg tablets, three times a day)