Hi everyone! I saw my gi this morning, and i am back on meds after trying to go it w/o meds since the birth of my daughter 1 yr ago. I am on 40mg pred, and 75mg 6mp.
I have really been holding everything in and not really talking to my husband or family/friends about how i feel as im sure they are just as tired of hearing it as i am about talking about it. Anyways, after just having a second child, i stopped my meds to breast feed. Had two breast lumps removed (benign) and really wanted to try to go it med free, tho, i think somehow i didn't realize that maybe i was fooling myself. I KNOW that i should be on meds, or i will be sick. I just don't want to be SICK anymore.....im tired of the meds, im tired of the doctors (which w/ other medical issues seems to consume my time). I just want to be well and take care of my family/kids the way i should.
I am finding it hard to cope w/ the fact that i need meds again, which is stupid since i have had UC for almost 5yrs now. I became depressed w/ the original dx, but put things back together and got on w/ my life. I don't get why im feeling so depressed about it now. (im actually crying while writting this post, which is rediculious!)
I feel horrible all the time, have lost all the baby weight and then some (5'7 and 95lbs) and have no energy or strength to do anything.
Anyways, just wanted to know if others have depression related to their uc that comes and goes?? I hope w / the meds i will be feeling better soon and i will be making an appt. w/ a nutritionist today to, to help me gain some weight.
Guess i just really need to connect to some people. I could really use a "buddy" or two right now to help see me through this
thanks, and i hope u all are feeling (mostly) well! shannon