Thanks, Red_34. I'm very weepy today. Combination of fasting all day yesterday and on into today and dreading 5PM rolling around when I have to down the Fleet Prep (totally off-topic here, but why isn't the time correct on our posts? Shouldn't it reflect whatever time zone we're in?)
I posted on here about a year ago about everything going on with me that only adds (maybe contributed to) the UC from my childhood - you folks on here encouraged me to go see a phsycologist and I have. So here I am finally getting another colonoscopy and will probably consent to surgery next year (I have to restart my vacation time at work since I've already used some this year). But, I can't wait until then to make sure I don't have cancer starting.
I don't often post on here, but do come here often to read and get strength knowing that I'm not the only one in the world with this disease.
I'm just so scared today, I feel like a baby, crying constantly. I'm sure part of it is because of my childhood and the invasion I know is going to happen to my body tomorrow. That's why, along with the pain I experienced 4 years ago with my last colonoscopy, that I asked to be put completely under.
Gees, I'm babbling on today.