so I hate what pred has done to me, after having acne from age 11 to 28, I finally had clear skin for a couple of years, now I have rash like zits all over my face/neck and a couple of big pimples. I have big purple stretch marks on the side of my breasts, I look like a zebra. there is no line between my chin and my neck.... they have become one. My feet swell like balloons and look as ugly as sausages wrapped in twine and pulled tight. I have put back on the 10 pounds I lost w/my last flare. Gained about 20 w/pred.
Have a party to go to tomorrow but all I can see are recent pictures, where I look like the pillsbury doughgirl. I want to feel good about myself and hate feeling this way, I am miserable.
Also, just found out a couple of my friends are pregnant. I can't get pregnant now b/c of all the blood pressure meds I am on for my kidneys. I do not even know if I will ever go into remission and be able to have kids. This is really upsetting me.
I am so depressed. I am going to seek therapy. I just needed to vent and get it off my chest.
I do not want to look in a mirror or even try to look good anymore. btw, my husband is very supportive and tells me I look good and says he knows my kidneys will go into remission. but really what is he supposed to do? so I am glad he is supportive but it doesn't make me feel any better or any worse, I guess.
I just want to look like I did before.........
Beth, 32 ~ hoping to taper pred successfully, wish me luck!
Major Flare Sept/Oct 07
UC dx'd 03/00 (Proctosigmoiditis); Pancolitis since 09/07
Azathioprine 200mg 1xday nightly; Calcium and Vit D 500mg 3xday, Multi Vit, Folic Acid 400mg 2xday, Prilosec, Probiotics.
Minimal Change Disease (Kidney Disorder) dx'd 09/07 - partial remission since 03/08
Prednisone 7.5mg 1xday, Simvastatin 20mg 1xday, Diovan 160mg 2xday. Tekturna 300mg 1xday, Fosomax 70mg 1xweek. MCD may be from hypersensitivty to 5ASA drugs. Do you have edema? If so, check your blood protien level!