Pretty much back to where I started. I am having D like you would not believe, I am bleeding, and the cramping is getting to be unbearable. I swear every time I use the bathroom, I feel as though I am giving birth. Ugh. I get so disgusted with this disease. It is embarassing to explain to people. And yes, it ruins my social life. I am not a concieted individual, but I am a beautiful girl and I deserve to have fun. Yet living with this mess is so not fun. It is not the life I dreamed of when I was a little girl. Right now, I feel as though I am living in my own personal hell. I am not in college. I should be. I should be at the University of South Carolina-Columbia. With my friends. Enjoying the start of sophmore year of college, am I? Of course not. I was withdrawn my freshman year from SCC, due to missing too many classes. I am not asking for your pity, I am mearly attempting to clear my mind. Ever since January, my last post, I have kept so much inside. I cannot share it with the outside world, the world outside of colitis I mean. Nobody understands. Even if I do explain it, nobody really gives a darn. I do apologize for these aimless words, do forgive me people.
Expect more, because your girl is backkk :)
Nineteen year old female diagnosed Easter 2004.