I would say if you're having blood then it's likely you are flaring. But it could also be internal hemmorhoids so there are other explanations. But anxiety and stress can certainly make things worse- it always does for me. I am on Lexapro right now actually, have been for about
a year, and I must say it really has helped. Not so much with my actual colitis symptoms, but it has helped me cope a lot better and it has helped me get out and do things and make friends where I was terrified to before.
I would try to find a doctor that you like and trust and one that you can build a treatment plan with- it gets really confusing when there are "too many cooks in the kitchen" ie: too many doctors telling you what to do! And the one that treats UC like a cold has no business being a GI in my opinion.
It sounds like you have a lot on your plate right now! I know the prospect of having a lifelong disease is scary- trust me I still think about
the "what if's" constantly but the best thing to do is just take it one day at a time, try to find something that works for you (for some people it's easy, others it takes longer) and try to relax and take a deep breath when you're feeling frazzled :)
Female, 23, Ulcerative colitis (pancolitis) since 1999; GERD; gastritis; osteopenia in femur head & lumbar spine from long term prednisone use...
Lexapro 10mg, Sulfasalizine 3000mg/day