Sorry you're having one of those days when its all just too much to bear. You've been through A LOT and don't need to apologize for breaking down. I can't say I know what you're going through - all we have in common is the UC. But I do hope that you can still the light at the end of the tunnel. You know that old saying - Things can only get better from here.
Sometimes life just doesn't seem to follow the direction you want it to. I had two miscarriages before successfully having my son. After the second miscarriage, I was questioning whether I was supposed to be a mom and getting really down about it all. Then, suddenly, I was pregnant again and things were looking good.
I know its hard to think that good times may be right around the corner, but they really can be. Just take it one day at a time and remember that we're here for you. Good luck with everything and let us know how you're doing.
Katie, 30. Chicago 'burbs.
DX: Pancolitis as of 9/08 (Proctitis as of 1/08)
Current Treament: Asacol 1200 MG 3X daily, Cortenama 100 ML nightly, Iron 325 MG 2X daily, Zoloft 50 MG daily, Bentyl 20 MG as needed, Multivitamin.
Diet/Exercise: Spinach/sunflower and low-residue. Yoga and walking.
Previous Treatment: Canasa suppositories, Cortifoam, Prednisone, Colazal, Symex DuoTabs, Rowasa.