I'm a long-time lurker but never feel the need to post. However, I'm having a bit of a freak out and my husband is out of town...help please?
Does anyone ever second-guess having children? I've heard that one never feels "ready," but seriously...I'm having my second infusion of Remicade this week and have spent the last hour reading outcome studies. Obviously it doesn't have any very long-term studies, but patients seem to have higher rates of some cancers....combined with the fact that we have a higher rate of colon cancer and generally shorter-lifespans, according to the research...I'm having a moment.
I'm 27 and I was married 2 years ago. I'm scared to get pregnant while on the Remi even though I know plenty of women have had babies while on the drug. I couldn't live with the guilt if the Remi somehow messed up the baby's development...But the clock is ticking and I feel like I'm never going to be able to get off it...and even if I do, what if I have kids then spend my life in the restroom and then get cancer? Is it better just to live my life with pets? They're definitely less stress!
How did you decide to have kids? How old were you? Did it turn out okay? (I know life's not perfect, but is it mostly okay? Do your kids have UC?)
Sorry. I know this is a messy post. As I said, I'm having a bit of a moment!