Ditto the therapy.....it will definitey go a long way to helping you realise you don't have to be in control of everything and everyone in your life
The more you intellectualise and not take responsibility for your own actions, the harder it'll be when you realise you're alone.
Yes, you have health issues and it's understandable that you're ticked and sad and depressed.
Yes, you have to eat for your body needs the nutriends and low blood sugar can encourage feelings of agitation.
Yes, you were abused in your past relationship....you have to allow yourself to heal, to forgive so that you can
open up to the boyfriend who obviously loves you. He deserves that.
Therapy isn't a failure, it's freedom.
Hang tough....it's not a ride one takes lightly, but it's truly awesome during all the lghtbulb moments. Besides, the true you is what will emerge after all the defenses you've build up are revealed.
Oh, forgot to say that you have the right to all your feelings. It's what you do with them that can have repercussions. Bringing those feelings to the cognitive level and allowing yourself options of how to react will give you the time to make a good decision. You also need to prepare yourself for your day's events such as having snacks, etc to keep yourself from getting physically exhausted from having no food intake.
One more thing....saying you're sorry about
how you acted without the "but" to justify helps a lot!
*Heather* Status..Asacol 6 (3 twice daily); enemas every 4th night
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed
~Probiotics....(Natural Factors Protec 2 or 3 + 1 or 2 Primadophilus Reuteri Pearls @ bedtime
~multi-digestive enzymes as needed
~Ranitidine,Pariet (reflux); Effexor XR 75mg(depression); Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!