Although I haven't had UC as long as you, I can totally relate. Sometimes for no particular reason, I just get so angry and upset about having this stupid disease. It comes and goes in waves. I've been having so much progress lately, and then yesterday was kinda bad and it just brought me to tears. It can make you crazy by teasing you with progress and then sending you right back to the toilet.
Sorry to hear that you're going through one of the bad times. I've written off 2008 as the crappiest year of my life, and I just want to forget about it. Here's to a happy and healthy 2009!!
Katie, 30. Chicago 'burbs.
DX: Pancolitis as of 9/08 (Proctitis as of 1/08)
Current Treament: Iron 325 MG 2X daily, Zoloft 50 MG daily, Multivitamin.
Diet: Spinach/sunflower and low-residue.
Previous Treatment: Canasa suppositories, Cortifoam, Prednisone, Colazal, Symex DuoTabs, Rowasa, Bentyl, Cortenema, Asacol.
Status: Near total remission