Hi....we all go through that stage, but if you've recently given birth and are dealing with a baby plus flares, you need to talk to someone who will make sure you are doing OK physically and mentally.
Do you have enough supports, friends, family? Are you able to delegate chores, etc? Does your husband take his responsibility with baby, house, you..etc?
I would suggest, however, htat you call the doc and ask for rectal meds. I would suggest a retention enema...the 5-ASA type, Rowasa or if you're not in the US..Salofalk. That will help rectal inflammation and help ease your symptoms.
You're on a high dosage of Colazal...did you start on that dosage?
Are you taking 4 sachets of VSL#3? that might be adding to your discomfort.
Are you eating enough protein, etc during the day?
You'll soon get over the pity feeling..if you aren't able to at this time, you should consider maybe low dosage antidepressant for a short period until you start to feel better.
Hang tough...there are a lot of new moms on this forum who can hopefully give you suggestions, empathy, etc.
*Heather* Status..Asacol 6 (3 twice daily); enemas every 5th night
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed
~Probiotics....(Natural Factors Protec, Primadophilus Reuteri Pearls, Natural Factors Ultimate)....1 each @ bedtime
~various digestive enzymes as needed
~Ranitidine (reflux); Effexor XR 75mg(depression); Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!