Hang in there.
It sounds like you and your bf may be going through something, and/or something other than UC is bothering you. I find that sometimes, it's not that having an illness is the end all, but it's the fact that the everyday stresses in our lives that most people cope with, are ADDED to the fact that we are already dealing with this illness. We have a full plate and then some.
Hang in there. Don't feel like you are alone and don't let the UC have anything to do with anything else if at all possible. If things aren't working out with your bf, don't let the fact that you have UC get you down on top of this. It will not affect whether you and him make it, or whether you find someone else. If anything, it will help you make sure you find that right person.
Oh...and like a couple others here, my dog makes me laugh everyday.
Try finding a hobby or something you enjoy doing. Hope you find ways to feel happy. Just be comfortable with who you are. That's the biggest thing to happiness. You can't break up with yourself, it's a lifelong marriage.
Chuck - 28 yrs and counting
Diagnosed w/ UC Dec 08 - currently feeling ok
Pentasa 500mg 2pills-4x daily
50mg 45mg 40mg 35mg day - Calicium + Vit D
Multivitamin, vitamin C, probiotics, fish oil
"If you can solve your problem, then what is the need of worrying? If you cannot solve it, then what is the use of worrying?"