I understand how you feel- I could not stay home, for my sanity! When I was pregnant, I was doing direct care work for mentally disabled adults. I worked overnights, 2-3 per week, in their own homes. I had to go back to work when my daughter was 3 months old- again doing a couple overnights a week, on the weekends. So that's an option, that sort of schedule, if you can deal with it. We moved when she was 2 1/2, & I worked part-time, a couple evenings a week, from 5:00-8:00. Again, in the medical field, this time for a non-profit health clinic. Once she started kindergarten this past year, I was able to get back to a more normal schedule, & am working 3 days a week & one evening. So there are options for you to work now, unless your husband has the type of job where he's on call & could get called at random hours. Or, if you refuse to work at all, then you're just going to have to suck it up & wait 'til she's in school, then you can go back to working day hours. Not to sound harsh, but if you really are going crazy, you're better off finding something that makes you happy & the schedule works for you- you'll find that you're a better Mom when you're happier! As far as being responsible for everything- there has to be some sort of compromise. For example, the one night I work, my husband is in charge of dinner, bedtime, whatever needs to be done. Yes, I do 99% of the housework, shopping, cooking, laundry, etc. But I can deal with that- he works more hours than I & is the primary breadwinner. It is hard- I could never do a home business because I need the interactionwith other adults & I like the satisfaction I get from working. Who knows, the stress of being stuck at home can be just as bad for your UC as the stress of juggling obligations!