eventually, we learn to accept and value the things we have....even if it's from the other side of the fence (unfortunately)...and this is meant in a generic sense.
Regarding affairs, my first husband thought it was OK...the resulting feelings never leave...yes I forgave the first time..should have left, even though I was only 19 and very stupid. The others made the divorce nice and simple. You know what? The second wife had the need to write me after 15 years of marriage and say I was right that he didn't change and had left her and their 4 kids for a younger woman. Equally naive. Eventually the Catholic church requested an annulment from me so that she could marry him without guilt I guess....I laughed. Some men never change, and if you have, I hope your wife realises you are truly sorry for what you did. That will go far in the trust issues.
Best to you...truly.
*Heather* Status..Asacol (3 x2 daily); Salofalk enemas nightly for flares, tapered to maintenance mild flare nightly enemas
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed; Ranitidine (reflux); Effexor XR 75mg(depression); Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~vitamins/minerals/supplements; Probiotics....(Natural Factors Protec, Primadophilus Reuteri Pearls, Natural Factors Ultimate). @ bedtime
~various digestive enzymes as needed; started Omega 3
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!