Do what you need to do for YOURSELF. Others cannot understand that the excess pushing of the body to compete also can exacerbate an autoimmune disease. It's stress of a different kind that's required to go over and above what the body may not be able to handle.
If your body is telling you to slow down, you have to do so.
If your mind is thinking guilt, you will only exacerbate your symptoms because you may not feel in control....it's the others who are telling you you're a loser, not a winner, etc.
They'll have to deal with their own disappointment....you have to deal with yours.
You're not quitting forever, you don't know what's available for you if your perception changes.
I've turned down interpreting jobs because of how I feel on a daily basis...as well, I'd have to give up my hair clients because I couldn't do both well enough without the added distress of "comfort".
The relief to say no is tenfold....and I have no regrets. My goal is to stay as well as I can mentally and physically. Not to say the mentally staying well doesn't take effort...it's what takes the most effort.
Using terms like babied out, quitter, loser, lazy...etc....is counterproductive, but I've used them a lot.
A break is good for you to rethink your future strategies. It's not to say you cannot go back, it's to say you need to get feeling better so that it's not what's controlling your every thought.
Seeing a counsellor might be a good thing for you to do to help sort out your thoughts.
Remember, the others have invested in you for their goals. You have to invest in you for YOUR goals....make them and see how it can all work for you.
*Heather* Status: mild flare enemas tapered to every 2nd night
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~UC meds: Asacol (3 x2 daily); Salofalk enemas nightly for flares & taper to maintenance
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed; Ranitidine (reflux); Effexor XR 75mg(depression); Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~vitamins/minerals/supplements; Probiotics....(Natural Factors Protec, Primadophilus Reuteri Pearls, Natural Factors Ultimate). @ bedtime
~various digestive enzymes as needed; started Omega 3
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!