I'm sorry you felt that I was attacking you about the anxiety. It's just that I was in such a bad place with my postpartum anxiety, and was helped so much by a few counseling sessions and Zoloft, that I don't want to see anyone else go through what I did. My mom suspected I had anxiety issues, and asked me to talk to my doctor about it, quite a while before I was able to realize/admit I had a problem. Now I wish I'd realized it earlier, because I feel like the anxiety "stole" some precious time with my newborn son. Having been in that place, I know it's hard for the person who is suffering from anxiety to realize they have a problem.
And my reason for asking you about anxiety wasn't just because of the one post about your fever, etc. I asked because you'd written quite a few posts before you even began Remicade and before your symptoms of sepsis began, so I just put that all together.
I never thought you were being silly. A person who is having trouble with anxiety isn't silly because it is a real problem. If you were having a problem with it, I just wanted to be able to help in any way I could, and, as I'm sure you know, you have to realize you have a problem to be treated for it.
It wasn't just you and I did ask a lot of questions before I started because I was very nervous about
all of the side effects. I just found it odd that I had many responses from people suggesting I had anxiety because I assumed most people would be cautious/nervous about
a drug with side effects like this. Perhaps I do have anxiety NOW because I am a nervous wreck waiting on my blood cultures because the outlook for sepsis is not always good. Whether it is sepsis or not this has scared me enough that I will have to give very serious thought to whether or not I want to have another infusion.
37 year old mom of 2.
Diagnosed with Ulcerative Proctitis 1995 (24 years old) / Ulcerative Colitis in 2000 (29 years old)
In remission for 4 years from 2005 - 3/2009 with colazol maintenance only.
Hospitalized for flare 3/23/09 - 3/25/09. Hospitalized 2nd time for same flare 4/17 - 4/22
Current Meds: Remicade, Apriso 4/day, Prednisone 10mg per day, Rowasa Enemas 2/day, Culturelle
Had 1st Remicade infusion in the hospital 4/22/09, 2nd infusion 5/7/09 (I think the first infusion put me in remission!)