Ok, so like most people on this site I'm feeling pretty rubbish at the mo, just started on Azathioprine and back on the Pred. And apart from the lovely toilet habits I'm feeling quite nauseous most of the time, and so exhausted after doing the slightest things.
Anyway, a really really close friend of mine and her 2 young daughters have invited me to go on holiday abroad with them for 2 weeks in August. My friends husband died last year of cancer and so it was an awful time. I am still struggling with the loss myself as he was like a 2nd dad to me. My friend has paid for this holiday for me and she said she wants me there as a big thankyou for the help I have been for her and the girls during the terrible time, and also because it is the first family holiday that they have had since he died and she wants me to be a part of it for her and the girls.
She knows I'm not at all well at the moment and has been so incredibly supportive throughout the last few months and keeps saying 'Oh I hope you'll be ok for the holiday...for your own sake as well as mine!' . And she asked me the other day if I was excited about it and I was like "Erm well I'm just trying to take one day at a time at the moment." I didn't know what else to say. I almost feel like I don't want to go, I worry if I'm still feeling like this then I might be holding them back from doing the things they want to do. And because she has paid alot of money in order for me to go, and so I want to be able to do all the things she has planned. I was planning on paying her some of it back, and at least be able to take a bit of spending money with me, but my contract at work is being halved because I'm not able to manage full time hours because of the UC and I have basically no sick pay left.
I can't pinpoint what the reason is exactly but I just don't really want to go and am not particularly looking forward to it.
Theres alot of sensible people on here so I wondered if you had any advice?!
22 year old female, from the UK.
Diagnosed with Ulcerative Proctitis Jan '08, Proctosigmoiditis Jan '09.
Hospitalised Jan '09 for 3 days IV Hydrocortisone - had no effect!
Hospitalised Feb '09 for 7 days (5 days - IV Hydrocortisone)
Currently taking daily:
40mg Prednisolone tablets
100mg Azathioprine (started taking 11th May)
1g Acetarsol suppository every other night (Previously taking 5mg Pred suppository)
1g Mesalazine granules x 2
Motilium (anti sickness)
7.5mg Zopiclone (taken when needed for sleeping)
10mg Citalopram (anti-anxiety/depression)