So I guess I should wait for my third infusion of Remicade before surgery... I'll try to do that (it's in a moth so I will see how I can manage to live like this for a month...) the thing about
Remicade is that I don't totally trust it... only 10 years of use in the medical field doesnt give us the facts about
long term use...
And no, people around me don't understand how sick I am because I don't LOOK sick, I've lost about
17 pounds but I only look slimmer (was 127, now 110), I still take care of my appearance and try to continue working and doing my stuff... So everyone think I am just complaining I guess, my father (shich I am stuck to live with since I am sick cause I couldnt continue paying the bills) is pushing me to work, I understand that he's impatient that I move out, but I have trouble doing a 5 hour shift...
This is total hell, I am totally down this morning (father started screaming at me at 6 am because I put too much water in a potted plant, it fell on the wood flooring and soaked it for the night (this never happened to me before i guess I was too concerned about
having my colon removed when I watered the plants...) so now the floor is a little messed up and my dad LOVES his floor, theres not a single day he doest check for a new scratch on it (I have 3 cats who had to follow when I moved in here ...) and tells me about
it. I feel like a burden.
I feel so bad today... I gotta work at 12:00 for god's sake. Soory for my complaining, I had to vent...
Diagnosed with severe pancolitis 03/09
Prednisone 35 mg, Imuran 100mg, 2nd Remicade infusion.
Mulitivitamin, calcium supplements, probiotics
Seroquel 12.5mg, Paxil 10 mg (for anxiety, since 2003)