Hi Nick...I too would suggest a counsellor or therapist who can help ease your way of thinking regarding all you've been going through and all that's happened to you. Sometimes it's near impossible to even have any areas left in the brain for coping when so much is going on with healing, etc.
Firstly, you need to be on rectal meds.....UC starts at the rectum, and that will help keep things in check and ease your worry that it may get worse, etc.
Are you going to physiotherapy to help you recover from your accident?
I don't believe the meds started your UC, but considering what you've been through at this time, I know if it were me....I'd be flaring for sure.
The fact that you're having small #bms could mean your flare is limited to the lower part of the rectum...as well, the vicodin will slow the bowel a bit and lessen the transit time of the bms...which is helpful for this time considering the amount of pain you must be in and running to the bathroom, etc.
Do the rectal meds to deal with the rectal inflammation. The mindset is really what will help you cope with your issues, and learning the process is better than someone saying try to change your focus.
You have a legitimate reason you're anxious...recognising how your thinking process works will be helpful in intervening and allowing yourself alternate thinking options. It'll be helpful in all your life events, not only UC.
Did I mention rectal meds??
Keep us posted as to how you're doing.
*Heather* Status: maintenance Asacol 6 daily + Salofalk enemas every 4th night
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~UC meds: Asacol (3 @ 2x daily); Salofalk enemas nightly for flares & taper to maintenance
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed; Ranitidine (reflux); Effexor XR 75mg(depression); Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~vitamins/minerals/supplements; Probiotics....(RenewLife Ultimate Flora Critical Care + Primadophilus Reuteri). @ bedtime
~various digestive enzymes as needed
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!