just wanted to get some of your thoughts on this issue.
Friday night I ended up reluctantly joining a friend for drinks, although I had some indigestion and almost called it off. When I have a few drinks, I find that I tend to keep drinking even more and more...I'll have a few beers and maybe a shot, and then the buzz starts and I want to keep drinking. So I drank so much that I pretty much walked home, threw up a bunch of times and passed out. I seem to have blacked out a bit and did a bit of drunk dialing as well (where's the phone app to prevent that one?)
I can go for months without drinking, but when I do finally drink, I don't want to stop. I've always been like that to some degree, and of course with this mystery of UC I don't really know how long it has been on my back, maybe my entire life to some degree? or maybe not, but I wonder if it drives this behavior of mine.
What I've been wondering about my drinking since knowing I have UC is, when I drink, for a certain length of time I feel better. I mean, I don't notice the weariness, the mild discomfort, headaches, etc. I also enjoy being out of my bedroom and off the couch, and for that matter talking to people, having fun, things that I often shirk due to just not feeling 100%.
So I'm wondering if any of you have engaged in this kind of binge drinking or had this experience. I am wondering if it is common in chronic illness. Maybe it's not binge drinking, but some other thing (shopping too much, addictions etc). Some maladaptive way of dealing with the stress that life brings anyway, and UC exponentially multiplies, plus the added factor of chronic illness that strikes at such a young age hampering one's development and leading to unmet needs (think along the lines of the *bottom* of Maslow's hierarchy for those familiar with him).
The issue for me is that I try to live at a bare minimum, going to work and keeping my affairs in order, and don't have any healthy ways of coping with stress, so I let it build up. I am going to be trying to pick up some healthier ways of dealing with stress like physical exercise instead.
Diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis 6/2006 at age 26 after sudden E.R. visit
~Pancolitis (Mild to Moderate)
~I had Mono in 2000
On Colazal 3x3/day; Folic Acid 1mg; Calcium/Magnesium/Zinc combo
(Generic Balsalazide not as effective for me)
In remission about 2-3 months after E.R. but not back to normal!
I hate Ulcerative Colitis and can't wait till we eradicate it