It's been a while since I've been on the forum, because I've been in remission for some time now. Recently, I goofed on my spinach/sunflower diet and started bleeding again. It's going away and I know I'll be back to normal soon, but I find myself struggling with the idea of having a chronic illness.
I have never felt like I fully accepted the notion of being ill for the rest of my life (even if symptoms aren't always present). I still need to be extremely cautious with what I eat, and sometimes I just get so fed up with all of it... like I just can't accept that this is who I am and what I have to do.
Have any of you struggled with these feelings? And have you found any books (or any other inspiration) to help you cope with the permanence of this disease? I'd love to know what's given others a sense of peace with UC.
DX: Pancolitis as of 9/08 (Proctitis as of 1/08) and IBS
What Worked: Spinach/Sunflower Seed Diet & IBS Diet (www.helpforibs.com)
What Didn't Work: Canasa suppositories, Cortifoam, Prednisone, Colazal, Symex DuoTabs, Rowasa, Bentyl, Cortenema, Asacol, Iron, Zoloft, Acidophilus.