Hi everyone :)
I'm still hanging in there with this right sided pain... Some days it's almost undetectable, and other days it bothers me quite a bit. But, it doesn't seem to be getting WORSE... it's just there and annoying. I don't have any other symptoms really except for really mild nausea mostly in the evenings or the feeling that you ate something that didn't agree with you and you get the rumbly gas filled tender gut feeling.... Other than that.. Things are ok.. EXCEPT:
My doggone Husband.. Ok, first and foremost, he's taken care of me financially through this so I have to give him credit for that..., but emotionally, he's a cold stone. Right now, as I type this, he's in the other room, writing me an email to tell me all the things that are bugging him about
me. I got up to hand him the phone when his daughter called from Germany and saw his work in progress on his computer.. UGH...
I have been slacking on doing paperwork (bookkeeping) for our business.. Don't get me wrong, it get's done and bills get paid, but I don't do it EVERYDAY and sometimes go 2 or 3 days then will spend a few hours catching up... That bugs the heck out of him because he wants me to do it everyday, like clockwork.. I seem to have developed a mental block when it comes to doing the books.. I've done it for years and I'm just plain sick of it... I've watched us go from a net worth of over a million dollars, to not having enough money right now to pay our bills and I'm kinda pissed off that he hasn't made smart decisions with our money and basically pissed it all away..
So last night we got into a big argument, and he just sits there on his high horse and tells me about
ALL the things that are wrong with me... procrastination, he says I have ADD... stuff like that.. Basically he sits there and picks on me until he feels better and I feel like crap...
Never mind the fact that he's a drug addict, smoking ** every day, which he says he has to do to save our marriage.. LOLOL,. He says he's not a very nice person naturally without it and it mellows him down to where he can be nice... LOLOL.. what a load of crap..... he's been sober from alcohol for almost 14 years, but he's still an addict, plain and simple and will justify his behavior anyway he can... Plus, **has mad him become very lazy and when he closes up that shop, he's on the couch watching TV or in bed sleeping.. but mostly sleeping. We hardly interact anymore..
I know I'm very stuck in this situation right now... and not looking for answers here, just needing to vent and get this off my chest.. I know I'm supposed to keep stress out of my life, and HE knows that too, but he's a very selfish man and if he's not in the best mood, the heck with how anyone else feels or thinks.. it's all about
him.. Even this morning, I couldn't sleep after my "chewing out" last night, so I was awake when he got up this morning at 3am.. He was actually UPSET with me that I was intruding on his morning time and talking to me with such a crappy attitude... so I brought my computer, my little dog and a candle into my bedroom and here I am... (we have seperate bedrooms)... maybe that's a good thing right now.. lol...
Ok.. enough of that.. Just had to get it off my chest... Thanks for being here everybody.. :)
Post Edited By Moderator (Lonie) : 2/10/2010 7:45:17 AM (GMT-7)