imagardener- Might be an end in sight but that doens't mean i don't want to curl up into the fetal position and cry now.
pam- My mom is PSYCOTIC. She takes money from me on a semi-regular basis and once opened a credit card in my name, spent the max on it, and then didn't pay. She also smokes with my brother. Both of my parents have hit me just because they felt like it (as in, to this day, I have no idea what I did wrong to deserve being hit) but my dad is worse. I didn't say hi to one of his friends when I was little because I was being taught stranger danger in school and he took me out to the car and beat me...the police were called but nothing happened.
It's so hard to deal with when family hurts you. I was physically abused as a child/teenager, too. I can somewhat forgive my mom because now I understand more about
domestic abuse and can see that she was so abused by my father that she became a monster. she thought she should stay with him for us but didn't understand it just made things worse. she is a much different person now that they are divorced, but it is still too hard to completely forgive her.
You just have to move on and remember when you have your own children to be a better person than your own parents were. I think about
this all the time and can't imagine intentionally hurting my son. I do have a lot of anger issues and yell at my husband more than he ever deserves and have to work on it more because I don't want my son to see that. I've never been to counseling or anything and most people don't even know...but maybe I should
27/F Diagnosed with unspecified UC 11/08 (symptoms for over a year before)
Asacol, Prednisone, Remicade with no success--no remission for over 2 years
8/09 colonoscopy shows that the whole colon is affected
12/18/09 Removal of colon, creation of J-Pouch and ostomy; recessed stoma
12/30/09 Takedown too soon; RV fistula
1/9/10 Second Ileostomy Surgery with sparing of the J-Pouch
1/25/10 Stoma Revision Surgery and Attempted Fistula Repair(couldn't find it)
3/30/10 Takedown again
Lomotil 2 Tsp. (4/day),, Flaygl 250 mg (3/day), TPN 14 hrs/day, IV fluids 4 hrs/day Prednisone 5 mg (1/day), Florinef .05mg (1/day)