I am sorry you're feeling so down. I feel exactly the same way. I am so stressed, my life is all about
trying to survive, working more than i'd like at jobs I dislike and trying to stay healthy. Unfortunately, I am not the healthiest and nothing seems to change that. I currently have health insurance through my boyfriend but he is talking about
leaving his job, which will leave me uninsured again. It is so stressful. Now I have to look for fulltime jobs with health insurance because I know I can't get it as an individual with all my health issues. I also know my life is awful when I work fulltime, not worth living. I wonder why people have children, life is so stressful. Hope this doesn't make you feel worse. Just needed to vent.
March 2007: Diagnosed with Mild Proctitis - Canasa as needed.
August 2008 - December 2008: FLARE & Anemic - Started Asacol!!
January 2009 - December 2009: REMISSION!! Asacol (9) + Canasa 2x Daily
December 2009 - January 2010: FLARE!! Asacol + Prednisone + Canasa
February 2010 - April 2010: Colazal + Prednisone + Canasa
May 2010 - June 2010: Lialda + Cort Enema + Prednisone : Colonoscopy: Mild / Moderate Active Pancolitis
CURRENT: DOING OK! Prednisone, 6mp, klonopin, Canasa + Vitamin D