First of all welcome. You will never have a reason to feel alone now that you have found this site. There are hundreds if not thousands of people here who have UC who feel very comfortable sharing their experiences. In a way I feel I give back to the UC community by sharing what little I know so that other people can benefit in some way. Please feel good knowing that you are by no means alone. Share your feelings here without being ashamed about your UC and you will be surprised by the amount of emotion that people here give to you. I know how you may be feeling. UC is a very private disease and most people don't want to discuss it with people who don't have it because those people often have a hard time understanding the pain and anguish that we go through. They see a completely normal people who is just wierd.
Feel at peace here. This forum will help you feel like you have found a home.