Gosh, it seems to me that depression is completely understandable! UC comes out of the blue, we do what we can to put it into remission, we're sailing along....... maybe ignore some extra gas or whatever and then - BAM! one morning here's blood on the TP... and it all starts again! Even after 27 years all told from UP to now, that first morning after a good spell, when I see that first bit of blood, it does a head trip on me.
Years ago I would become angry and depressed in a big way. Now it's just a short-term "being bummed out" - maybe a day or so - and I start to put together a strategy to take care of the flare ASAP.
I find that feeling proactive, whether it's diet, activities, meds, makes me feel more in control and raises my mood, and I remind myself that this is the nature of UC - it's not "something I've done" that has brought on the flare.
I've also learned, only in the past few years from good folks here, that upping the meds (and probiotics, for me) can help head off a flare before it becomes really bad - so I try to put positive energy into that.
But... it's so easy to become depressed about UC, I certainly understand!
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Age 54. Diagnosed UP 1983, UC 1986
Asacol - down to 13 pills/day,
almost off Cortenemas. Rowasa 2x a week.
Metamucil - 2 doses/day
VSL#3DS and other probiotics, Multivitamin, Calcium and D
homemade yogurt each day
Son, 17, dx pancolitis 2007, in remission