I was mentally prepared for this from day one because of the last time. I would try again but my husband said no way. He just can't take it. I think it is the fact that these aren't early losses that make it so hard even though no loss is an easy one. He has a hard enough time watching me suffer with the colitis and then this just adds to it.
I think it would be an easier decision for me to do it again if I was 30 years old not 40yrs old suffering from a disease like UC. That is my reason for maybe not trying. I was told my eggs are great and they sure are fertile. I wish I had the money to fiind a gestational carrier. I just don't have $25grand.
I may go back to the Reproductive Endocrinoligis for answers just to have closure if there are any. She had no answers as to why I lost the first baby. It was a normal boy. No chromosone issues. Hopefully, the tests will be back on this baby by my OB follow up next week.
I physcially feel pretty good today. UC is doing good and I am almost off the Prednisone. Now just need to heal mentally.