Hey Tank.. I Read your two posts, .sorry to hear this bud..you were one who really helped me out when I had low(114) testosterone. It went up for a while, then back down :-( Anyway, I appreciated your input, greatly. When mine was low I was pretty depressed as well, cloudy in the head, and like you, I'm against depression drugs. To me, more drugs, more side affects. Have you thought about
seeing a naturpath Dr, or someone in alternative healing(TCM, traditional chinese medicine, or acupuncturist). Many of them would agree with you not to take anti depressant meds, but they would have suggestions for you in the present moment. Not to be harsh, but really, two choices, stay where you are, or make a change. I know I'd love to see you rebound back
And I bet you want to THRIVE as well. I know what you mean about
libido and sex life. Mine's been pretty down too. Twice I wasn't able to get erect for a new partner, but then I hooked back up with my xgf whom I love and got rock hard. Funny, with low testosterone I Was still able to rock it. Something about
this love thing, eh? Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that all these tests, and numbers, and drugs, don't mean anything without an emotional connection with others. Our body stores stress in different places. I never thought I was stressed as I'm generally happy, but it's obvious I do store it in my pelvis area. Sorry to hear you don't wanna
open up with others but I think that will help you the most..but first finding someone you trust, want to share with, someone who you believes truly cares for you to get better. In my opinion I've only seen that in my integrative Doctor and in eastern medicine. I feel western medicine doesn't want me to get better, they want me to pay $$ for pills so they can take tomorrow off and golf. I don't know your country or offerings but I am sure there are Ayurveda doctors who would help, truly listen to you and help. Maybe even your local yoga studio could point you in the right direction, a lot of them also don't trust western medicine. Hope this helps, I don't mean to say anything against your belief system, only trying to help. If you have 18minutes, check out this video, from a Dr, it makes a lot of senseyoutu.be/7tu9nJmr4Xs
hope this helps, you're always welcome to message me directly. Take Care, I'd love to see you live your dreams, we all would.