Posted 5/26/2012 5:25 AM (GMT -6)
Sorry to hear about everything misspetals. I know exactly how you feel. Whenever I get a bout of the UC I feel ugly and disgusting around my spouse because of the meds I have to take, and the fact that I run into the bathroom a ton of times. It's at the point now where I don't sleep in the same room as her when I'm flaring so I don't have to wake her.
It's perfectly natural to feel that way. As a guy I can tell you that if he is still with you, it means he really cares about you. Any shallow, selfish guy would have been gone by now, but he's still there so it's your feelings that need to be resolved. Think about this; if there was someone you loved and cared for deeply wouldn't you ride out any disease they had? You'd be there for them no matter what. It sounds like everyone in your life feels the same way about you. They are there for you no matter what. You have to allow them, and believe that that's how they feel.
Your stress about all this will only add to your UC symptoms. Positive thinking, and the determination to not be sick are half of the battle. I go to the gym often myself, and sometimes I find that a workout is just what my body needs. My strong will simply tells my body that its going to be fine, of course I have to tone down the intensity of my workout, but I find it doesn't take long to get back where I am used to being. Stereo is right, different diets seem to work for different people, but across the board you'll also find that positive thinking is shared among everyone with success stories, you have to believe that you will be one of them.
So remember, everyone in your life now loves you and accepts you even with your condition. No one thinks you are gross, people are humans and this is part of being human. Bask in the small successes of this condition. You know you're turning the corner when your bathroom frequency goes down, when there is no blood, etc. Hang in there!