I think you're all right, and THANK YOU so much for the support!
My husband completely has 0 coping mechanisms for stress or when bad things happen. I know he is totally upset that I'm sick and he has no idea what to do about
it. We have been together since high school, we're attached at the hip really! He's just getting slammed from his mom and one of his sisters, who is probably the most self-centered human being I've ever met. Well, at least one of them. Now that were a mere week or two away from getting all of their paperwork issues straightened out, we can start basically cutting people out / reducing the impact other family members have on our lives.
My husband comes from one of those families where absolutely nothing ever went wrong - up until his dad's accident, all of his grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins were still alive and healthy. He's got 3 younger sisters - he is the oldest - and 1 is the selfish one I referenced above (she's 28), the other is about
30 and has basically be excommunicated from the family for years, and the youngest is my best buddy (she's 22). She was even my maid of honor! She's actually been pretty great through this whole thing.
I've been in therapy, but after all that therapy I'm starting to realize that, actually it's everyone else that needs to be in therapy! The money is going to be better spent on a house keeper and potentially some therapy for my husband. I can handle myself - it's the mess that other people want to dump on me that I can't do anymore.
My husband just talked me into booking a trip to the Big Island / Hawaii for my birthday in February. I have a lot of GOOD things going on in my life, too - I'm in the process of applying to 2 different jobs, one in government and one in teaching, that are basically my 2 "dream jobs I would keep until retirement" and I think I have a good shot at both of them. Neither involve litigation, so that would be a blessing. I like the firm I'm at but litigation is SO high stress, and being a small firm if I'm out there is no one to cover for me, so that's a tough thing.
I'm worried I'm going to have a pred induced hissy around thanksgiving if anyone starts in on me. Actually, it would probably do some good! I'm always the nice one
Started getting sick June 2012
Colonoscopy October 9, 2012
Diagnosed with UC located in Sigmoid Colon & lower October 2012
Asacol, 800mg 3x per day (indefinitely)
Mesalamine Enema 1x per day (6 week course)
40mg/day from 10/26/2012 to 10/30/2012;
30mg/day from 10/31/2012 to 11/04/2012;
20mg/day from 11/05/2012 to probably 11/14/2012
VSL #3, 4 pills/day
Vit. D 1000IU / day