Butterfly, I can only add to what's already been said.
I feel for you, and I hope you continue the upward trend and feel better and better every day.
I too believe it was negligence to take you off ativan cold turkey.
I am so sorry for your loss, and all that's happened to you, it's hard to handle it all. Are you on any antidepressants to help handle what's going on for now?
When was the last time your vitamin d3 was checked?
A big hug to you!
Rx meds didn't help me. But 4.5 mg LDN +Paleo diet +supplements=REMISSION.Protein shakes w/almond milk,Maca powder,L-Glutamine,D-Ribose,chia seeds.VSL#3,K2,VIt. D3,slippery elm bark powder.For more info,my protocol is the 11th post at this link: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=38&m=1666318
If you have any questions, you can find my email address at my profile.