I mentioned I was thinking about doing the crohns and
colitis walk to another colleague who I was working with. I was only thinking
about this, but she wanted to do it too and it turned into a company project,
by her and myself deciding to HR to promote it.
I arranged the walk and company email and also a bake sale
table, the company said they would support us and wanted us to take a lot of
pictures so they can put them in this magazine they do weekly. There were was
another work member (from my department)
who then said she would come, and finally another girl from our
complaints departments said she wanted to go. It turned out to be 4 of us
participating, and I arranged the walk and email for this.
Anyway, we were going to launch the email on Monday this
week, but the girl who went to arrange this with me in HR said “I can no longer
go I have a show to go to instead, which I forgot about”, ( I think she double
booked herself and forgot she was going to this show and said she was doing the
walk with me). She then also told me that because she was not going the other
girl (from my department) was now not attending because she was not going. So
her friend is not going so she is not going, if that makes since.
This left me with 2 on the walk, myself and the girl from
our complaints department. I am a bit worried about her going because she also
has a lot of stomach problems and can have a lot pain, which I am worried about
her doing this 7 miles.
Anyway, I told the girl who arranged this with me that I was
embarrassed, because we arranged this as a company thing and it feels that no
one wants to go. I also feel it was
just dumped on me to sort out the emails and I didn’t want to end up just
promoting myself, it looks as though I don’t have support, and I felt silly
doing another email to show that half the people were dropping out.
The two girls who dropped out said they would still do the
bake sale, and would be happy to help me with fundraising but would not do the
walk anymore. I felt hurt (for one I felt the reason for dropping me was crap, especially
the part about, I am not going because my friend is not going.) and I felt that I did not have the support I
thought I did. I also felt it was not cared about, and I was not cared about. This
was a personal thing for me.
I did not have confidence in them anymore to help me with
the bake sale table and I questioned the organisation of this. I lost my
confidence because of their reasons for dropping out and we are not going to
get deductions from our targets that we have to make to do the table; therefore
we have to make up hours. I worried that they would then tell me on the day of
the table (or something) that they would not do it and then I would be forced
to do that on my own. I basically lost my confidence with taking it on and did
not feel the commitment.
So what I did is I made the walk smaller, I told the company
I would not need the table or to do the email. I don’t know if they liked it or
not, and a couple of the people who were helping with the baking said I should
have kept the table. I said I would do a smaller table in our department and
not take on the big one encase I ended up on my own for the whole day. Did I do
the right thing??
Well sorry for this rant it was just frustrating as I took
them dropping out to heart and I felt stupid for having such a lack of support.
What do you think?? Should I have sent the email with myself
and our complaints girl only (even though I am a bit worried she will make a 7
mile walk) or did I do the right thing to downs size the project and telling HR
not to send it (really don’t want the pics in the company to be just me).
Should I have kept the bigger bake sale table and just have done it on my own,
perhaps, or they said they would help???. It would have meant I would needed to
make up 6 hours doing it on my own, which is not a lot really. I don’t know the
organisation went out the window on this.