Honestly Somedude, your issue is one of acceptance and maturity. Everyone has challenges in life. Some of us have UC. Some of us are alcoholics, or have loved ones who are alcoholics, or get into bad car accidents, or get cheated on, or get cancer, or just have straight up depression. You can't change what *is* but you can change *what will be*. If you spend the rest of your days wishing and waiting for someone to change the fact that you have UC, you will have a long and sad life of wishing and waiting. If you accept that you have a chronic illness and *given that* do what you can to continue to have a fulfilling and meaningful life, I think you'll find happiness.
If your problem was that you lost a leg in an accident, would you spend the rest of your life refusing to wear a prosthesis and insisting that modern medicine should grow your leg back? Sure, you can't do EVERYTHING exactly the same with a prosthesis, but you can still do a lot of things, find happiness for yourself and make a difference in the lives of others.
Self pity is ultimately a selfish state of being -- it's all about
YOU and YOUR suffering. Maybe you should do some volunteer work and expose yourself to other people who (gasp) might be doing even worse than you are. I guarantee they're out there, and even with UC you have the ability to help others. Do you want your life to be about
mourning something you have no control over, or about
doing something valuable?
dx'ed UC pancolitis 5/12
past meds: asacol hd, VSL#3, apriso, rowasa, xifaxan, 6mp, cortifoam, pentasa, cimzia, canasa, butyrate, flagyl, cipro, prednisone, remicade, methotrexate, cholestyramine, cortenema
current meds: none!
step one: colectomy, end ileo 1/16/13
step two: j-pouch construction, loop ileo 5/1/13
step three: takedown 7/31/13