Conquer UC said...
I had been observing this thread but i cannot think of what to contribute. Because i myself am suffering from 'anger turned inwards' aka Depression. And i did post about that recently. I have tried a psych briefly when i was still in the daze of the newly diagnosed/postpartum period. But the truth is: this disease has changed me forever, i will never be the same again. Infact, no let me rephrase that: I do NOT want to be that same person i was pre diagnosis. I do not want that perfectionist control freak that i was. Im glad im rid of that burden and now i can be as wild (lol) as i want to be. No more perfect girl next to door. I'm me and i like me and i don't give a darn what others think.
Also, i have changed myself alot and learnt that nothing is ever worth getting worked up over. You get angry over something and you will always hurt your body with the negative energy and expose yourself to disease.
From your posts i can tell you one thing: yes you are a strong person, however you are harbouring resentment and anger over being diagnosed and you are almost in denial. You sound like me last year, i was looking for that 'it' cure. Hell i still am to a large extent. Which is why i cannot advise you on this really. Maybe you will find that something. But the truth is you may need to consider surgery because maybe a cure won't come.
I became a control freak because of IBD, I used to be laidback and easy going, now I'm a lunatic, can't even imagine how hard it must be on my family and friends considering I can't even stand myself anymore.
bee propolis caps 500mg one cap twice/day
omegas 369 caps one cap twice/day
probiotics 10 billion cfu once/day
vitamins C-calcium ascorbate (easy on the gut) and vitamin A each once/day
Prodiem fibre supplement one cap before bed
I've also altered my diet (no junky stuff at all, processed, fast-foods, refined sugars, ect) and exercise regularly.
I went from 30+ bloody BM's/day with lots of lower back pain to an average of 5/day no bleeding no back pain and completely formed stools, still have severe urgency issues.
~~~~~~~~My bum is broken....there's a big crack down the middle of it! LOL :)~~~~~~~~