Conquer UC said...
Yep, it's been that long. I was barely making it to work and looking after my son during the last few months due to the extreme fatigue/symptms of the flare up. Plus being restricted to eating mostly just chicken soup.
So last night i went to this engagement party, and saw "normal" people there. It was interesting. It's like 'blast from the past' where everything feels new and strange.
I couldn't eat most of the food, thankfully there was rice and some chicken so i had that. In small amounts. Then i didn't have any sweets bc they all had gluten in them. The Others (normal people) had so much i would have barfed! But then im not Normal.
Oh i had a small spoon of the engagement cake. Just to taste. I figured what the heck i need to atleast taste that.
I felt a bit alienated. I dunno. Like i felt there was a big part of my life that most of these people didn't know about. And even the ones who knew didn't know how much it affected my life. I try to take it all in stride rather than play the sick role. I figure how would pity from others help me? It wouldn't really. But the down side is you feel like you are putting on a show sometimes.
Oh and putting makeup on was superweird. And i was the kind of person who rarely left the house without atleast my eyeliner on. I don't think i had used any the past 3 months!!
Well so thats my little quip about yesterday. I felt i had to share.
Any of you relate?
No I don't relate. Re-read what you just wrote and ask yourself if that is truly how you want to continue living your life like.
I, too am on a gluten free diet. But if I'm going to commit to something, I go all the way. Not go there, look at the people and not eat anything and making then feel uncomfortable. You're actions or inactions probably was noticed.
We had a retirement party the other day at work, a big cake was offered. They made a big cake with gluten. I don't give a f...I ate and ate extra. I was ok days after.
I believe you have to indulge every once in a while. Btw I just did 1h 30 min of biking at relatively big speed. And sometimes I biked even if my joints hurt. I don't give a f....
One time, this lady crashed into me in a curve while biking. One of my finger was broken, I had a little splinter thingy. I fixed my bike (200$) , went biking with the broken finger and with U.C why? cause I don't give a f...
You wanna live in detention all your life waiting for I don't know....for waiting then, ok.
You wanna push through, yeah I know you're tired, I had blood transfusion, so I knpw, but f... it, I'm going at it.