Wow, thanks for your reply. I have really benefited from reading that. I am just so lost and have so much to learn. This is so hard to put my head around. I hate to be a debbie downer or a complainer. It's just not me. I just feel like I am slipping into that person the last few days. I feel like I need to soak up logical information to combat depression. Ya get me? I just don't even know where to start. Baby steps I guess.
I was doing fine until last night when I replayed the procedure while lying in bed. My nurse, who was laughing and joking with me before the procedure would not make eye contact with me after it was done. When I left and said good by she had a sad look in her eyes. Maybe I am totally reading into another person. Just felt strange. It stayed with me all day today.
No matter what, information will be the key to understanding and coping. I am just so low on the learning curve and grabbing here to get any info I can. So thanks for helping me. I really do appreciate it.
Have a beautiful day.