Mark....CBT takes a long while. It allows, through learning process of onself, to have alternate options of what to think instead of a mindset of automatic perceived expectations and scenarios.
I suggest you trying it again or seeking info, workbooks, online connections and see if it makes more sense in the situation you're in at this time.
The part that sucks about
it is the realisation of self, responsibility for out thoughts, reactions, behaviour
and reactions. There is a loss of freedom during unlearning those automic thoughts, reactions, etc while gaining decision making options. Confusion happens much of the time once the awareness becomes part of it.
Our hardwiring doesnt really change, but our awareness and allowing options within that hardwiring is what allows us more freedom of choices.
It's good you have distanced yourself from family.
*Heather* I give suggestions, do with them what you will.
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~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
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