I hate thinking about
all the "what ifs". It's good you quit smoking, that's all I can say. It sounds like you're on your way to getting better. Some people have nausea with imuran initially and it gets better. Andrina dealt with it badly and she was able to tolerate imuran for many years after, I think she was using zofran for a while. You should reach out and ask her, she may have some tips. I try not to think too much about
what I should have done, or could have done, and try to focus on moving forward
I wish I could change the past drastically too. Just depresses me when I think that way. I probably should have started biologics sooner, but in retrospect, I was a non-responder and I don't think starting sooner would have changed that. I probably would be in the same place, but maybe i would have gotten ehre faster, which ultimately would have been a blessing in disguise because I wasted a lot of time fighting. it was expensive, stressful and a huge loss of my precious youth! Can you request a calprotectin to track your healing?