Posted 1/2/2021 10:16 AM (GMT -7)
Martina, you have my deepest condolences with the loss of your father. The loss of a parent is indescribable. I lost both of mine within 18 months of each other.
Now that you have shared a little more information, now would be a good time to rethink going on a low dose antidepressant. You have many different things going on, this is not limited to just UC. My arrangement with my pcp was he provided the medication with the understanding that I would get counseling. Like Quincy, I was on the low dose of Effexor ER was a tremendous help. There is no shame in needing all the help you can get for your depression. The best way I can describe the Effexor for me was it helped smooth out my rough edges. Believe me, I had nothing but rough edges in those days. I did not suffer any side effects with it. I have been on it more than one time too. My visits with my counselor was just me, this was my hour of me time.
One of the best sites around to learn about UC & medications to treat is ccfa.org. It's a user friendly site with accurate information. You will find a lot of bad information cruising the internet. The better educated a person is about the disease & meds to treat is a huge plus. My gi told me go to this website & read, you will learn more there than I can tell you in an appt, same with finding a good online support group. You are still new to things so don't be hard on yourself. However, at the same time try not to get on the path of "what if." That path will suck out precious time & energy that you don't want to expend.
Quincy's post above has some great ideas. Take care.